Hey all!
I thought I'd share something that's been on my mind...kind of all day today and I don't know if it's because reality is getting closer to time or time is just getting shorter because of reality and what's happening today. But as you all already know, I'm pregnant...30 weeks...31 weeks on Friday which means only about 8 more weeks left in this beautiful but yet scary journey. I'm not going to lie to you or any soon-to-be mom's but I'm scared as hell. It IS scary...the delivery, the nursing and feeding, the changing the diapers, but even more scary is the him growing up!!
Fact About Me: I've never had siblings to change diapers or feed or to take to school or ANYTHING which makes it that much scarier.
I think most new moms are but with his kicks getting stronger everyday...I guess it's just becoming more of a reality than earlier on when they just felt like flutters. I mean when I say he kicks...he KICKS; he literally moves my whole stomach around and I'm just like sooo are you ready or what but then I tell him he can't come yet lol! I know the feeling will go away but I'm feeling unprepared and that I just won't be the Mom he needs and of course all of this is in my head...and a lot or most of what I hear every day is that "You'll be an AMAZING mother" and I hope to God that is true. But the worries and my anxiety seem to overcome the comments and what I hear from my support system.... but then I remind myself that I do have a support system and an amazing one at that. All the fears of the "What if" are drowning my mind but then I look around and I couldn't be more grateful for what I DO have in my life.
I will love this little boy to the ends of this Earth, with all my heart, soul, and power that I have invested in me. He already is my world and I love feeling him move, punch, and kick inside me because I know he is not only going to be a happy baby but an outgoing one at that!
He WILL be strong.
He WILL be smart.
He WILL be kind.
He WILL be respectful.
He WILL stand up for himself.
He WILL always be mine.
I found a quote that kind of describes how I'm feeling but reminds me that everything will be okay and I hope it will help you all too!
Question: If you are a new mom, how are you feeling and what are your concerns?
Please Comment Below and feel free to reach out to me if you are feeling the same way!
Loved reading your post! I can relate to so much of what you are feeling. And although it’s been many years since I last gave birth, I remember that the feelings of anxiety, fear, hopefulness and joy were all there. May peace cover you and be with you each day Jordan. You got this! ❤️